I want to take a few minutes to talk about my mental health.
I’ve been struggling on and off for about 8 year now, I go through periods of lows and then feel normal for a couple of years and then the lows come back. At the beginning of last year I started to go back into one of my lows. Then a couple of months later I discovered booktube and started my blog (because I can’t be bothered to learn how to edit videos).
Over the past year I’ve found my depression getting better and I feel a bit more stable now, and whilst that is mainly thanks to no longer being in the stressful environment of uni and taking some medication for it, part of it I think is down to my blog. I get to write reviews and feel a sense of accomplishment when I’ve gathered up enough effort to finish one. It’s so nice getting to speak to so many people and watch my follows gradually climb. I love the feeling I get when I see how many views/likes a post has received.
It’s given me a hobby that I’d never even thought of. Friends that I never even imagined having. It gives me an outlet instead of just shouting into the void. The book community, for the most part, are so supportive and I don’t even feel worried about posting something like this.
There are days when I don’t do much, like when I’m off work and even though it can feel like a chore sometimes when I write a review I feel like I’ve actually accomplished something. Which can be a big thing when you struggle with your mental health.